Yeah, I figured at this point, it is good to be as truthful as possible. This way she can never say that I lied to her. I don't have to tell her everything I am doing or thinking, but when asked right out, I don't want to lie. More journaling: Tuesday night she sees her IC. I don't know what they are talking about now, last time we spoke about her IC, she was helping W to move on from me. Since we spoke then, she has expressed doubt in breaking up the family, and possibly still loving me. So, I get a little nervous when she has these sessions. My next IC is this coming Thursday. I am looking forward to hearing my C's take on all that has transpired over the past 3 weeks. Finally, next Thursday I see my spiritual director. One of the requirements of becoming a deacon was seeing a spiritual director once a month. They are there to help you continue to discern your calling to ordained ministry, guide your prayer life, and help you examine your relationship with God. With all that is going on with me at this point, even though I am no longer in formation, I continue to see Sister in order to hash out where God is in my life right now, and my relationship with Him at this point. I always look forward to seeing her.
Me-40 W-41 Together-10 M-8 S-6 S-4 Bomb 5/08 Bomb 10/08 Thought things were better, was wrong. Still living together Wife doesn't think she will ever love me again.
