WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 11

[confusedinpa]

I got her sercret email account and password

Here was the oldest email I found. The last one from him was July 18th. Not sure if something happened but she started on match 2 weeks later

From: C J ([e-mail])
To: Ms ____
Date: Saturday, November 8, 2008 8:01:01 AM
Subject: Re: today


___.....
hi darling
first, i can't find all the words that i could possibly use to describe how i felt today
so, that said, a few that come to mind are incredible, wonderful, fun, and - because of you - special....

friday was so fantastic and i mean that
being with you, seeing you happy, seeing you glow; talking to you, silence with you, laughing with you, touching you, holding you and kissing you are what made our day so fantastic.....being able to spend that quality time was just what i - and i think you too - needed.

you are a fantastic person jen.....oh jen you are so adorable; so cute, so intelligent, so vibrant, so sexy.......so hot.
i have said it before and shall say it again; you are a total woman and i am the luckiest guy in the world to know you.....

and then, with it all, we have that "thing"...............and oh boy with each and every moment it seems to grow and seems to continue to show itself and continue to confirm to us that it exists....and that it seems to be very real......that "thing"

I continue to be amazed by you; each time i learn more that makes you so wonderful....
like our time in the "dark place"; wow.....you are fantastic.....and i love what you said to me about that jen....
because, i was not at all thinking the way you were and now i understand and now....i get it......so thank you......

so; i enjoyed every moment of friday.....because of you....
and yes i want to continue to nurture what we have darling.......yes........

i hope you have a good saturday and weekend......
thank you for such a wonderful day friday and , that day was wonderful because of..................

YOU!!!

i LOVE YOU!!
your guy......
me




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From: Ms _ <[e-mail]>
To: ___ <[e-mail]>
Sent: Friday, November 7, 2008 8:56:03 PM
Subject: today


__...
today was sooo nice....
perfect......just like you!!!
i love that you thought of something so special for us to do
and it turned out to be an absolutely beautful day for it
i know that was a lot of driving for you but i really enjoyed it and appreciate that
it was different than the other time we have spent together i think
and again we seemed to enjoy it all
today we had some really good conversation too
ones that are difficult written or even spoken on the phone
or when we are short on time together
i like that we can be so open with each other
i think that is what allows us to be so very close

and __...
when we "went to the dark place"
that was wonderful for me
i wanted you so badly today
and being close to you in that way was so satisfying
and i hope that you liked it too
(even thought the time and place were not what we would have liked it to be)
and i never want us to think of that or anything we share
as being one sided
you were pleasing me all day
and even at that time
whether you realize it or not
you were pleasing me then too
and i loved ever minute of it
you are absolutely delicious!!!!!
there are many ways to please me __...
and you have covered more than i even knew existed!!!

i love you more now than i did this morning
lets really enjoy what we have together baby
and nurture it
and watch it grow
can we do that sweetie????

good night sweetheart
i love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sweet dreams baby
i will think and dream of us much tonight
xo.....YOUR ___