"Forest, in regards to the child crying, I'm assuming you were playing with words and meant exH's crying...or are you saying that she shouldn't be concerned with K's crying? I was kinda confused on that one."
To a point.. Both. I truly believe that "Life" has a impact on everything we do and say. Basically.. what "we" are walking thru shows up everywhere. In that train of thought I just want BS1 to make sure she is not "superimposing" things. Again she will have to trust her "heart" on how to deal with K's crying. The situation's are different.. but not that much different. It's always the small things that bring big changes.
"When I get upset, I just remind myself of the person he really is."
And yet.. this is part of the problem? You can't force yourself to "think abnormally". You need to think about things on a new level.
"Yes, I am sooooo jealous...I want a man who walked out on his pregnant wife, who lives off of me and has no problem doing so, who has to pay over $1000/month in child support - that I will end up paying for, a man that made me work overtime and double shifts up until 1 week before I delivered our son - just because he wouldn't get a job, a man that cheats on me with his ex wife and many other women and has the whole two years we have been together, a man who has no real relationship with his family, hates his mother, envies his father and is so jealous of his brother he won't even acknowledge when he is in the room. A man who is content with seeing his daughter once or twice a month even though he only lives 15 minutes away, doesn't provide ANYTHING for her or pay her child support, doesn't check on her or wonder about how she is or what she is doing that is new, a man that takes waaaaayyyyy more than he gives and doesn't pull his weight, steals, lies and lies and lies and steals and steals and steals.
Yes, April, I am jealous....that is the kind of man I would do anything, even compromise my childred and myself, to marry. Because, I can't do any better......HA"
At times I wonder if this is not what you really think. Lemme just say if you are living your life with "this" on your mind.. we might be "here" a long time. You have the power to put "this" behind you. "This" takes me back to.. "Forgiveness is a gift you give yourself." Why would someone say that? Why would I be pointing it out here? What can you do to.. Forgive?
"Scaring the crap outta me."
Prepare and Protect. Is any of this starting to make sense.. or become more clear?
Think about why I talk to you the way I do. Think about what I say to you. At the very least.. I will take your mind off "This" for a min. That is my goal.
"Since when where you not my Wife?"
Funny question. Can you answer it?
Relax Eat Think Act normal React.. Smartly. Do something different. Emulate. Do Work.
