holding on - i think i might have mislead you, HE didn't call it dirty and nasty, that was me making a comment, he only said what i said he said in quotes. us taking a shower together? um, that only happened ONCE in our married life. he wont have that. thanks for stopping by!
shiny - so what your saying shiny is that i should give it a try???? LOL
{{{{PAM}}}} - i was so happy to read that you took care of everything last night, and got back on your medication - that is the most important thing. these feelings will dissapate as the meds get back into your system. i am so glad you were here amoung all your friends and they helped you thru this. i am actually very happy david came to your rescue - lotsa love pam!!!
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journaling - oh my gosh, got into a heated argument this morning and all the old feelings came back to haunt me. it was NOT a relationship argument but one of our famous "he said she said" things. how conviently he forgets what he says only 5 minutes ago and puts the blame on me for the argument.
but what is interesting is that after he left and we just grunted at each other goodbye, i called him to apologize. that is SO NOT LIKE ME - that is what i call a most definite 180 for me. yes sirree - i tried to make it better. he was still bitter i could tell but also shocked that i called.
for a moment there tho, i was ready to toss in the towel. the feelings of i am trying to make this work and he isn't stuck to me like glue for what seemed like eons of time. but then i thought, will this get me closer to my goal? i said no, suck in your pride and call him and apologize. and now i have vowed to not let it affect me for the rest of the day. oh yeah, i think i am catching on
he is under stress cause of this bladder thing and he has a dr's appt today and i really didn't take all of that under consideration when i blew off this morning.
