Well SP, at least be grateful there was enough money for the divorce to even proceed. I don't have the $ to divorce shmedlap and my ship is sinking fast, plus he is loving the control...a hundred bucks here or there...give him a list of expenses if I want more $. So, he gets to be my daddy for a while.
F*ck it. If I can keep my PMA, so can you. Hang in there. This is the worst of it.
And maybe you don't need to be so friendy that you are privy to her indulgences. This is a perverse and brutal element of having trusted and leaned on our spouses financially.
I don't know what to say about it other than...keep going.