H invited me to dinner with kids and his (our) friend. 2nd time since break-up with ow in May/June (and we were away most of July). It was nice. Most of conversation was between friend and I but we all laughed a lot and H seemed interested in what I had to say. Conversation between the 2 of us still seems a little awkward, but I think that's to be expected at this point.
Just before dinner, H had S call me. S asked where I was and I told him I just left the house. H then got on the phone and hastily said that S wanted to pick me up on the way if I was still home, but not to worry if I had left already. I thought that was very thoughtful of S and almost turned back home but didn't. When we got home after dinner, I told S that it was so thoughtful of him to want to pick me up. He told me it was daddy's idea and that H made him call me!
Friend's family will be moving here soon - which means H will be living on his own and not have his friend shadowing him. I'm so curious how things will be when that happens. Friend has already said that he hopes to do a lot of family things with kids and I - and I think he is secretly working behind the scenes to push H in the right direction. H mentioned that he will be traveling a lot, which doesn't surprise me.
I feel positive that things are moving in the right direction. Having friend here to go to dinner with and have conversations with and do family things with eases the tension and awkwardness between H and I. It's a very slow and gradual transition.
snodderly, peace, OC - thank you for all your comments and advice. I'm really going to work on being my best, even when H is not around. I know the reconnection process is slow. Need lots of patience and to lose the expectations!
