Have just been reading through your thread, as I am so new to all of this and only at the very beginning and I don't have the insight and wisdom of wise words to give yet. All I can say is that you have to try and stay focused on the your end goal and as you yourself have said to me to look after yourself and do things for you that bring joy.
I really do feel your pain as my pain is so fresh and the nerves are still raw I know how you feel.
I am sorry I don't have anything more wise to say, but I am thinking of you and everyone who is here trying to see their way through the nightmare that appears to be life at the moment.
