K4D Rising #4

[K4D]

W and I talked. She said she had figured I had been drinking last night. I said yes. I relapsed after during our fight. She said she could tell.

She said thank you for the apology and I explained that was not me last night. I explained I had been doing so well and then I just relapsed last night and that I am getting back on the straight and narrow today. She said I should go be with friends today since I don't have any plans. I told her I love her and I am not saying it to make her mad that I just don't want her to believe what was said last night.

I told her I do miss her and am tired of being apart from her all the time. She said it is going to be a long long time before we can do anything together.

My life has truly spiraled into nothingness. Where is my faith? Why do I feel so alone? I flat out crashed. Now I have to pick myself back up and I don't feel like getting up.

Kevin