I'm sooooo glad you are doing OK! It appears that you may have turned a corner that I too turned fairly recently. Yes, that dark place is very frightening, but if having been there shows us the real gift that our life is and enables us to take back our power and begin to live our lives for ourselves, then that is a blessing!
It also should be said that the ability to have those deep real emotions speaks much for your character! The world needs people like you (and me?) in it!! We are the caregivers of the world! Please don't ever doubt again how very beautiful, and important, you are!! To those who know and love you today......AND those you have yet to meet!!
Take care!!
((((((hugs))))))
TJ
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