still hoping, What you are experiencing is the rollercoaster of emotions. It's a normal process and you aren't alone in feeling that way. Take it one step at a time and get to really know your h once again. Don't be too quick to push the magical button of wanting him to come home or be w/you for long periods of time. Learn to communicate and reconnect w/him on a friendship basis and see where the relationship goes from there.
I have to agree, none of us would have liked the people that they became when the Mother Ship took them away. They do know what they are doing is wrong on some level but are unable to stop themselves.
Hang in there!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
