WAW and 4 kids

[tryingtilDorR]

You can't control his actions, so forget about him. He's a worthless piece of garbage and should be viewed as such.

Thanks for reminding me!

The thing I try to remember is that he isn't worthy of being able to control my emotions so don't let him.

I spent the past 2 days out of town with D15 at a tournament with just a couple of short phone conversations with W. I think it did me some good to try to clear my head. I came home 'at peace' and with a PMA this afternoon.

W and I had a nice evening - she cooked dinner for some of her family and all of us had a nice time. She wasn't overly-cold to me like usual. The days leading up to the OM issue last week were pretty good between us as well and I was feeling a change in the weather regarding our R for some reason (I try not to get hopes up however).

One thing this OM episode proved is that he is a pursuer. When W and I had discussed this previously she always tried to take ALL the blame for the EA, but I have a feeling things were quieting down between them and this is why he decided to 'show up' at her workout. The fact that he had to do this tells me that he might be pursuing because she isn't moving in the direction he wants? I am not going to get too twisted up mentally over this but it is interesting to consider.

My emotional reaction was so powerful I suprised even myself. I wouldn't have expected that I would react that way - I had been convincing myself that I didn't care about OM as much anymore but I guess I do.