#65 finally!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[BobbiJo]

K, Tan a little for me, OK?

You are such an amazing woman, but I knew that already. Now get back to your vacation...

[transformer]

Kalni,

I don't know what to say. I am so, so, sorry to hear this.

You are such a strong and amazing lady, I know that you are going to claim your big beautiful life for yourself.

I want to kick your H in the nuts.

I wish I could see you in RL and give you a huge hug.

I am so glad that you can be at the beach right now, with the ocean and the sand.

LOVE,
T

[Kalni]

More coming out... They've been together since May 2006. I came across of emails (had not read them all-too many) where they talk about the hotels they went to to [censored] while I was "sleeping". I also came across a line of emails talking about how he took her on his desk and what exactly she was doing to him... Very educational. I guess I could ever be her....

I am shocked with the amazing double life he had. In one email he was telling her that other times he could control himself, with her no. So maybe I am dealing with more than one cases...

Mom is calmer. She did call him but told him one phrase.

I will get back on august 18th and he will take the kids for a month. He has a trip, he needs to figure out what he will do with the kids then.

I am not disgusted yet. What the hell is wrong with me???????????/ Help!!!!

[Tomato]

not a thing wrong with you ..keep livin' your life. You are terrific.

[BeginningAgain]

Sorry you are having to go through all of this. I know how hard it is to read stuff like that. I came across letters my W wrote to the OM (she couldn't mail them yet because he didn't have a "secret address" yet. She too wrote that she could not control herself around him, that he had so much control over her.

I'd say you're not disgusted because you emotionally in shock. That's how I was at least. Take care of yourself.

S4H

[Gypsy]

Hey Specialest of K's..

*hugs*

If you want to be disgusted, you will be. Right now you sound detached, almost methodical in your approach to delving into the revelations. Be careful of hurting the you within with all the reading.

It's good to hear your mom is calmer. Although my mom never yelled at spouse (the one time she did see him, he walked past me to give her a big hug which she accepted) she felt like there was a death in the family. That's all she talked about which annoyed me briefly until I realized she was grieving. My parents felt ex 'hung the moon', much like yours.

You're reading the past. It's the present that matters.

What are you going to do with your month sans kids? If I get the part, why not come to CT and see me act like a lil old lady?

I'll be incommunicado when you return and will catch up after that.

*hugs*

My ear is always open to you!

[sofaraway]

I am not disgusted yet. What the hell is wrong with me???????????/ Help!!!!

Simply because you have been enlightened does not mean that all of the fears that you had of being on your own disappear. Once you clear your path and realize that the hurdles can be dealt with, the disgust and anger will come sweets......

Ian

[RefuseToLose]

Nothing wrong w/you at all.

You'll process this all at your own pace. Like Ian said, the anger will come out when you are ready for it to come out.

RTL

[Virtually_Handsome]

I have a little theory about why you are not disgusted... I think you may have already gone through a lot of it. You already knew, even if you didn't know. I expect there will be more, though.

((((((Kalni)))))

[mishka422]

Trust me K, the anger will well up at some point in the future and probably when you least expect it. Knowing that it will come you can prepare in advance for it. Decide now how you want to handle it. Practice it in your head if you can and that way it will be easier to put it into action in the future.

Enjoy the sun and sand. I'm jealous!

LOVE YOU MARIA! You are a true inspiration.