I am so tired. So tired of this emotional toil that i put myself through.
truthfully i don't dream of days of x coming home as much of grieving the loss of love and marriage and family. FAMILY.
just tired... and yes i believe i am my way to true acceptance.
i have knowone that i am dating, though i have been on dates. it is hard when they move on so easily - but they were done so much sooner (mine was) then i was.
by the time they tell teh bomb.. by the time it explodes they have contimplated and decided tehy were done.... me? i wasn't even on the same "ROAD" as him... i was on the one to the finish line.. he had taken a detour and i din't even know.
i just want to not be sad anymore i want to heal i want to be deeply happy alone or with someone i don't want my children to feel they have to be my happiness
i just want to be free of this..........
M-20 years/BOMB 12/24/06 Moved out 3/12/07 D final 7/30/2008 finding myself again
