Quick journal and an observation. Had a good day today. Hung out with family, did some chores around the house, washed the cars and got a little sun. Grilled some salmon and tilapia for dinner. Not bad.
I made a point of pulling back from W today. And, W seemed to follow me around for part of the day. When I went outside to wash the cars, she came out and sat on the back deck to read - this is just next to where I was washing the cars. Surprising b/c it was pretty hot. She has also seemed very chatty around me - wants to talk to me. Not really that different than the last few weeks - just more consistent now.
I am really not giving a dam$ about what happens with W's eventual decision. I can say I really felt that today. No anger or sadness. Just apathy.
I am also noticing W is not as attractive as I used to think she was, and I don't think that is b/c she has hurt me. I had a great workout this morning, and the scenery was pretty impressive as well. Mornings like this make me realize there are many very wonderful women out there who would be happy to be involved with me. I knew that was the case, but seeing the proof is great.
So, does the LBS reach a point where their concern is that the WAS is not going to change their mind before the LBS looses interest in the WAS? I'm not scared of this. I just recognize it.
