It's MY life now!!!........

[Silent Chrleader]

Hey, Y'all!

Thanks for positing, "forward". Yes, they do seem to fly by the seat of their pants, don't they!

Well, things are still going OK with me. Although I have been thinking a LOT about H and still have a hard time really letting it go, and I get very frustrated over that, I have not and will not backslide on that. I am still really trying to GAL as much as possible.

I need to do better with my exercise and diet. I do the Deep Water Aerobics only once a week now (because it conflicts with my dance classes). I started Night club two-step and West-coast swing classes. But I have actually gained some weight back that I had lost (about 10 of the 50+ I had lost). It's very discouraging! I have an appointment with a naturepath on Monday though, so I'm hoping she can help with some tests regarding my metabolizm, possible food allergies, hormone levels and such.

As you all know, about a month or so ago, I had a psychic reading done. Some of what she said was.....

1. I would be going on a trip within the next 5 months (now 4 months). She saw me walking on a pier looking at the boats. It was a place that reminded her of San Diego, Hawaii, or the coast of Italy. I told her I had no vacation time coming but she said she saw it as an unexpected opportunity that would come and I should take it and have fun.

2. Regarding my health, she heard the words "muscle-toe" and thought that I should take care to protect my lower extremities (shins, calves, feet and toes specifically).

3. She said I would find a new love within a year. She heard the initial "J". Said he has musical talent, a good singing voice and plays acoustic guitar. He has a medium size brown or red dog that he may call "Lady". He has a wonderfuly laugh and sense of play and is a family man who will want to do things with the family and my kids will love him. He also has a truck and a motorcycle. Oh, and she said he had "connections in the east". She said he would feel my life with laughter and music. (Makes for a great fantasy if nothing else!)

So......

A couple of weeks ago I went to a swing dance. I wore some really cute heels and since then my big toes have been bugging the heck out of me. Well, now the toe-nails on my big toes have come off! (I know.....eeewww!! ) It's something called "black toenail" and I guesss runners get this all the time. It comes from pressure, and a blister actually forms and then drains from under the toenail. Again.....eeeewwww! But, then a couple days ago, I remembered what the psychic had told me about "muscle-toe"........yep, I'm hearing the theme from Twighlight Zone in my head.

A couple days ago, I got an "indication of interest" from a gentleman on a dating website. (I had discontinued my subscription but had left my profile up on it). Anyway, this gentleman specifically mentioned in his profile that he likes to walk his dog in the park, plays guitar, and speaks english, german and italian (connections in the east??)......So, I sent him an e-mail reply (no response yet)..... His name started with "R" though......

Last night I went to a local bar with some dance friends to see some professional tango dancers (and had a lesson). It was a lot of fun and I got to dance with several guys. It's embarassing because I am not at all confident with dancing yet, so I'm not very good at it (tango is a dance that you do in a "close embrace" and I was afraid of stepping on toes.....or getting mine stepped on!!.....which with my sore toes would not have been good!!) ....... but it was still fun, and everybody was very nice.

I did sit and talk to one gentleman named Joe, who has just gone through a D after 27 years of M. He is very bitter which is very sad. But, my goodness, that man had muscles on his muscles!!! He was 55 years old but looked about 30!! He does boxing..... a sport I never understood (the goal is to cause your opponent brain damage![i.e. "knock him out"]). But, it was nice talking to Joe and I encouraged him to come back to the dance classes since he has sort of fallen away from it.......yes, he's a "J man", but he doesn't have a dog and doesn't play guitar!

So, I'm "getting out there". There was a time when going into a bar by myself would have been impossible for me. I once was so agoraphobic that I would not go to a drive-thru at a bank with H. I am proud of myself for that...... but I still haven't found my "niche" yet..... I'm actually feeling pretty bored in spite of all my "activity"....

Oh, well...... onward and upward.....