I want my Monkey and Sheep Back

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Hi Karen:

I dont think my ADs are working at all. I thought it was because I got a bit more energy but not much and my mind is still a mess. And I am obsessing a lot and the slightest thing can cause a mental breakdown.

I have to talk to my Prescriber about it because I just don't feel good or as good as I should be.

I know I shouldn't email him back and defend myself, but I feel like its wrong to ignore him. I feel like I should email back and just at least say something along the lines of, I understand how you feel etc etc and accept his apology (when he said sorry for saying the he shouldn't contact me for a very very long time). Shouldn't I validate his feelings or something? Tell him I know how hard it is for him and saying nothing about how I feel? Wouldn't that be a 180 because I usually email back defending myself. What if I emailed back not defending at all and instead validate his feelings?

Im just confused. I feel like ignoring him is wrong and I feel the need to just say something nice instead of defedning myself. At least apologize for my last email that ripped him apart. I do feel really really bad about all the things I said to him in that last email and I feel like I should at least apologize for it, validate how he feels, and accept his apology and thats it. Is that wrong to do? If it is, can someone explain to me why?

I just want to understand a bit more. Im just really confused and I cant see how ignoring him and not apologizing for my tirade is a good thing...

I'm sorry if I seem like an idiot asking this, I just don't really understand it and I just want to know a bit more about what I should do and why etc..

Any advice would be great. And I promise, I will follow the advice I'm given. I'm not going to do the exact opposite of what all of you say. thanks