I really have been swamped with work. I have no idea if I am going or coming......i'm just so busy.
But, I am doing fine...trying to get my footing at work and it is gettting better.....but, at the end of this month, I will be in another department, so sigh....I will have to re-learn things all over again. I am averaging about 80 hr weeks...so no time for checking emails or just taking some time off for myself. If I get some time, I just want to sleep!
My H situation is the same. Need to buy a ticket still to go to Wisconsin for the Divorce. I don't know why I am postphoning/procrastinating this.....but, I am ok with it actually.
If he wants to go and thinks he can do better or he just isn't cut out for marriage or whatever his excuse....FINE! Be my guest.
My fate will not be defined by any other person but myself. I will be fine. I can and am very able to care for myself - broadly speaking. I am still trying to figure out what little things I can do for myself on a daily basis to care for myself. I miss being hugged! But, that is life.
I went out with co-workers last night and had a pretty good time. Its bothering me less and less that they are all married. I feel happy for them and am finally able to not see me and my situation in everyon else. It's not anyone else's fault that my H turned out to have issues he doesn't know how to deal with.
Other than that. I am just taking things one day at a time. My next day off is Wednesday. I get one day off a week and work thru the weekends...so no time. I am trying to figure out how I will emotionally handle the divorce day/weekend...
Hope all of you who have supported me these last few months are doing well.
MJ, what is happenind with you? Where are you at- mentally and emotionally? How are you doing with your H?
