K4D Rising #4

[K4D]

I was trying to minimize potential future financial issues but at the same time, still help her get something that can work for her.

She called me again on her way over to drop off D7 with me for the night. She again started talking about her car day and riding in vehicles and what she wants to do. I didn't offer any opinions. I just said ok.

Then she got to my apartment and started talking about it again. Again, I offered no opinions. I just listened.

Then I looked at her and said later. I started to walk off. She then asked me as I was walking off what time she could expect D7 back over tomorrow. I said dunno. Then I said we will talk about it later as I walked out and into D7's room to say hi to her. W just stood there as I walked by her. Then I heard her leave. I came back out into the living room at that point. W was done up looking good for her night out. I sat down and just thought for a few minutes. I thought what does it take to turn this M around. Please don't answer that as I already know what the answer would be and I can't argue with it.

Maybe I should have answered her at that point. But I just didn't want to talk to her. I guess I was some what pissed at her for this continous garbage of how she is acting. I'm sure I came off as a jerk. That bothers me even more.

If she doesn't want my opinion on her vehicle choices, why does she keep talking to me about them? I am so tired of the coldness from her except for when it is convenient for her to not be. I guess I just showed some coldness back to her tonight. Probably not a great DBing move on my part.

I guess I will text her later and let her know when I will be bringing D7 back tomorrow since I am basically babysitting tonight for W so she doesn't have to pay for one. I agreed to it so I am not complaining as I love spending time with both of my daughters.

I am trying to figure out emotionally how to detach yet still love her and pray for her and out M restoration.

Kevin