I hope you're right Sandi. Right now, however, I need to take my focus off of H and what he's doing and focus on me. I think my best shot right now is try to detach.

Days like today make me wonder why I am fighting for him. I know he's not acting like the man I married and I don't like the person I see. He's not the same father he used to be.

I'm so tired of thinking. My head hurts! confused


Me: 39 H: 39
S: 15
M: 18 years
Bomb: 6/3/09
H moved out: 10/15/09
H moved back:5/30/10