I'm sorry Stacey but this is affecting me. How can it not?? I'm allowed to vent arent I??? LET ME VENT PLEASE!!!
I AM ANGRY!!!!! I AM ANGRY THAT PEOPLE CAN BE THAT WAY!!
Whats wrong with me? Whats wrong is that I miss him, whats wrong with me is that I care about him, that I love him and am terrified that this is really over. I am human stacey and I MISS HIM. and it hurts and I can't just get this email and throw in the trash and get on with my life just like that, I am not as strong as you!
I never said I was going to sign those papers for him stacey so I dont know why you're saying what you're saying.
And Yes, I am afraid that he's gone forever and this is making it more REAL. Its F*CKING real to me now ok??
Give me the chance to vent so I can get on with my day! I feel like I can't come here and say anything at all.
I said I wasn't going to email him back, I said I wasn't going to sign the papers. I'm just here to vent because I have lost the one person that I love!!!
I never said this shouldn't affect you -- but you do have control over how much you choose to let this affect you.
Ofcourse you're hurt and angry - totally normal, and we've all been there. And I know you think you miss him, but I think mostly you miss who you wish he was, who you thought he was -- the idea of him. Sounds like the reality of him had not been good for awhile.
And I know you said you weren't going to sign the papers, or e-mail him, etc. But you've said things like that before, and then you backslide and contact him.
Have you read "Divorce Recovery" yet? And I think you have to move forward with the assumption that he is gone forever -- it's the only way for you to get on with your fabulous, independent life.
Coming here to vent is good, it's cathartic. I just hope that now that it's out of your system, that you will indeed get on with your wonderful day.
And how is he the "one person that you love"? I thought you had so many great friends?
