Yes the internet, you will find the weekends a bit slow around here, in fact I'm off for another chaotic weekend of being taxi for a teenager (the story of my life hummmm) I don't mind, my S is a blessing.
Listen, first, listen to his list if he will share with you. Unfortunately, some of it really are things that are issues (although in the long run probably not the big issue) that you can change. Ok, he says you call too much. Don't call unless you have to. I know it seems counterintuitive but in reality, you are being respectful of what he thinks he wants and giving him space. My H too said that but doesn't want to give me the same space (like yours). Drove me nuts at first, but to be honest, I have no problem sharing what I am doing, going, talking to etc..., so if he wants to ask, I let him. If he doesn't but we are being nice, I share. Now, two years after he said that, he tells me what he is doing all of the time. I don't care. It is nice to know, but it is funny to see the reversal. I will tell you that we are not reconciling, my he is a definate case of MLC, of that I have no doubt anymore, but we are taking the turtle walk into a new phase at this point.
Right now, take care of yourself. Sleep, eat, basic care. Give yourself time and love. You can only control you and right now you can do one of two things--let this destroy you permanently or take your time, be gentle with yourself and eventually begin to pick yourself up and go on. You have been sick, you sound like a fighter, I think you will be ok. I'll try to check in later today or tomorrow. Asked a couple people to check on you but probably won't see them until Monday.
"Acceptance doesn't mean resignation. It means understanding that something is what it is and there's got to be a way through it."--Michael J. Fox
