If I was perfect and could do this on my own without making mistakes, I wouldn't be here. But this is hard as I am sure you know. Knowing what to do and having the ability to do it is two completely different things. I know what to do, but I have trouble doing what I know I should do. I think don't I'm the only one on here that has the same problem.
I'm sorry for asking for advice and not taking it, it is very difficult and this is really really fresh for me. Its only been 2 months. I'm sorry if I'm making mistakes, I'm sorry for not having the strength to follow the advice I know I should, Im only human. Its just effing hard.
I KNOW it's hard, beepee. But the difficulty should come in how well, or awkwardly, or inelegantly, you try to DO the things you've been advised to do and that the DR/DB books say and that you yourself even know you should do. Not in not even trying them to begin with.
"What should I do, should I ride my bike?" she asked.
"NO!" everyone shouted. "Don't ride the bike!"
"Oh, I KNOW I shouldn't do it," she said.
So she rode it anyway, without waiting for the advice from the others, and then was frustrated when she didn't ride it very well.
"But we told you not to ride it!" the others pleaded.
"I know, but it's hard," she said.
OK, so it's a silly little story, but do you see the difference that I'm trying to convey?
