We are all here for the same damn sad reasons. Just like you.
And like you we've farted about and done exactly nothing to improve things.
Remember that the guys and gals here have something we do not.
Time and experience.
Two months? Two months are nothing. First duck my wife did was six of the damn things. And you know what? That first time I HAD got over things. I HAD dropped the rope. I accidently stumbled on the "As if" routine. AND she came back.
Honey - some of the people here have been trying for years. They've kept their faith. In themselves and their significant others.
They have seen some of the biggest mistakes and learned not to do them.
You HAVE to do this beeps. No "woe is me" and "I can't do it".