he was back, i think

[mdoodles]

u are absolutely right bluerain...but i dont think this could go anywhere right now anyway. we are both going through a divorce, i am a full time mother and father, not so free to run wild with some guy...

we already needed to slow it down after the first date...im hoping to see him tonight but i need to pull back my emotions already because im not interested in ending up hurt already!

all i can say is this to anyone reading that feels half the way i used to feel - its does get better. it really really does. i never ever ever ever thought i would feel better. u cant force yourself to recover, u cant move on when your family tells u to. it just has to happen on its own. no one can force it, u cant force it. its a aweful process that i wouldnt wish on anyone. not even on h, as much as i thought i wanted him to hurt like me.

it may have taken me years, but im ok. even if this guy disappears, guys are out there. i never thought i would find someone like h again, who likes what i liked, treated me to things like he did etc. but they are out there. and its not so weird to go out with someone else, when u are ready.

and im ready.

and let me also say this, with my ring off, its amazing the attention u can get!!!!