he was back, i think

[mdoodles]

ok, so who has been wondering where i disappeared to? lol

i will be honest, i met a great guy....weird i know, to go from wanting h back to being able to meet someone else.

i think i have been at the breaking point for a while and was finally, totally pushed away from h and totally turned off and ready to move on. maybe the moving was helping that along as well....

this guy is also separated, going through a nasty divorce, has 2 little boys and seems to be a terrific father. it just so happens he lives in the development i am moving to, which i didnt know until alittle bit into the conversation...

even if it goes nowhere (and where could it go at this point anyway in the game anyway?) my eyes are opened again to what life can be.

he took me to a fabulous fancy restaurant on the water and treated me the way i should be treated.

i was not uncomfortable, i wasnt sure how it would be or feel. didnt feel like a first date.

im ready for this. im ready to move on.

im moving this week and very excited about it.

i used to think i would always want h back. im seeing there are nice guys out there, good looking nice guys. guys that want to spend time with their children, fight for their children. oh, and want to be with me and give me the attention i deserve.

h lost his chance. he will want me back one day, no question about it.