Had a 16.5 hour day today! I am exhausted. But very satisfied. I went into work and got a call about an otter that we were going to euthanize at first and decided to do a rescue on instead. She was really sick. She survived the rescue, and transport, but when they got her to the Sea Life center she died during treatment.
In these situations I drive from the town I work in to another town about an hour away to meet the team who does the treatment. So, I handed this otter off, picked up a frozen carcass (an otter-cicle, if you will) and headed home. At around 8:30 I got a phone call about another otter that was stranded on the beach with a big group of people around it. This one just happened to be on the beach in a tiny town I had just passed through. So I turned around and drove down to the beach. Once I was there I droved the truck right to it, I was trying to use the truck to break up the crowd some.
This otter was just a pup, maybe 10 weeks old, a little girl, probably not even eating solid food yet. She was HOT. You could see the heat rising from her body, and her little flippers were hot to the touch. She was almost totally unresponsive, she was in real trouble. I took off my jacket and wrapped her up in and had a bystander hold her in the truck and we went to my house, grabbed a kennel and I bought a bag of ice and put it all over her and around the kennel to cool her off. Its the coolest thing, when you give a sea otter ice, they eat it, they have to be REALLY sick to refuse it, even the one that died earlier today was munching ice from me. This one didnt even acknowledge it.
So, I made another road trip! This time we had a much better outcome. When the team met me the gave her some pedialyte and took her temp, which was almost normal after all that icing. After the fluids she perked up a lot. Scratched one of the animal husbandry guys, seeing that fight come back in them is just great!
I got home at about 12:30 in the morning, I decided that I would take the work truck back in the morning, and the otter-cicle isnt going to get any deader. So long day, but Im still smiling!
I guess I gave the wrong finger to the wrong man...
I talked to H last night. He just texted me telling me about the dinner he had cooked. And a little bit later he texted again, just being chatty. We talked about all kinds of things. It stayed nice and upbeat. When I said I had to go, he sort of lingered a little bit, sent me 2 or 3 more messages after we said good night.
I dont know. I would really like to be making some positive progress. I guess that if the communication keeps up I can look at that as positive progress.
I went out last night and saw one of our friends at the bar. I hate talking to people that I havent talked to in years and they know whats been going on! I am planning on going out again tonight, just for a drink or 2 with some friends, all M couples (of course!) . But it should be fun.
I guess I gave the wrong finger to the wrong man...
Hey Rain, long time no speak, but I keep an eye on you. I was wondering when was the last time you saw H? You and I are kinda alike, but on different planes, you have to DB by a large separation, and mines because of the RO. Makes it real tough either way. I feel so frustrated some times cause I think these 180's and other positive changes wont even be seen(at least not by the ones we would want to see it.) Obviously we do them for ourselves, but the ultimate goal is saving the R right? Anyway its so good to see you are still smiling, at least he is trying to talk to you... and its that meaningless let me just keep her on the phone kind of talk... seems to me he misses you. Keep doin what your doin!
MotoB, it has been a while! The last time I saw him was august of last year. When he left he gave me a big hug and apologized for everything. He was crying when he did it. I think that he does regret it, and does miss me, but Im not sure that he believes that recovering from this is possible.
I think that the changes that have been made are reflected in our attitude. So, even if they dont see us, they can feel it in our communications.
He just told me that hes watching the Sex in the City movie... I guess the end has one of the couples reconciling in the end. lol. Thats why I havent watched it. Maybe its a good one for him to watch.
Last edited by bluerain; 08/11/0903:28 AM.
I guess I gave the wrong finger to the wrong man...
oh holey moses. I hadnt even thought about this in a long time. H just reminded me that he was going to come here in Sept. I think that his plan is to get the rest of his things.
I dont know why hes coming back, I dont actually think that its all because he wants to retrieve the last little bit of junk. Should I ask? Does he want to see me? Is it really just because he wants to get his things? Where is he going to stay?
I guess I gave the wrong finger to the wrong man...
Well obviously I'm not the expert here, but at this point what is the hurt in asking his intentions? I would try to keep it light, but still I think its in your best interest to have at least a general idea of what hes planning. Wow, the possibilities! I tend to look for positives, maybe even to a fault... but man this could be great for yall. How long will he be in?
Thanks MotoB, maybe your right! I dont know how long hes going to stay. I really dont know anything about this trip. Hes flying in, so I cant imagine that hes going to take much back to Va with him. I just dont know yet.
I would love to envision this situation where I could show up to pick him up at the airport wearing a beautiful dress, have my hair and nails done, and we would have this beautiful emotional reunion and his stay here would be wonderful. Oh to be hopeful! I do think that it could be a great chance for us... If things go right.
But, Im afraid that might be sort of a waste of my time. Oh well, it would make for a nice romance novel!
I went on a big hike today, it was a beautiful day. I wanted to get out and try to have some time to think. I dont know if I figured anything out, but I worked on my tan!
I guess I gave the wrong finger to the wrong man...
It doesn't sound like his main or only goal is to pick up his stuff. I just think you shouldn't have too much expectations about it. Better to have low or no expectations and then be surprised, than have high expectations that will be hard to live up to? Karen
I know Karen. I would love for it to be a positive experience, but I just cant get too comfortable. I havent mentioned the trip to him since he mentioned it the other day, and even then I just let it sort of slide by, as if I hadnt noticed. Im not sure if it would pressure him, or whatever if I asked him.
I guess I gave the wrong finger to the wrong man...
. But it should be fun.