Truth be told, I'm about as comfortable as H is with this status quo but I have bouts of arguing with myself and the need or want for passion and romance in my life. I think I'm still young enough that I don't want the rest of my years going by without simple hugs and kisses, and more.
So, the day after I locked H out life goes on as usual for us. H calls and asks me to do him a favor, H is home 'early' the next night, he is working with horses, he drops hints where he is, he calls again. For my H, this is swallowing his pride, this is reaching out. OR, is it just pacifying me? perspective I guess!
I also keep remembering that H told me he is shy. He was actually afraid to ask me to marry him. He said I said no the first time, and I didn't even know there was a first time! Idunno, do I make it too hard or too easy? I still feel an urge for R talk.
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
