Thanks Hope, yeah it does hurt me, and although we did not go through any kind of A, and I do not even remember if she use to say I love you first, but now I guess it comes down to me wanting the assurance from her that we are not going to go back to that place that almost wrecked our family>
I did bring it up to her about 2 weeks ago, after saying it to her a few times (she always responds to me I love you too). I told her it would be great for our R if you would say I love you to me every now and then, she then started repeating I love you I love you I love you, as if to say hey its no big deal I will say it all the time, but she has not said it since.
Again, she shows me love all of the time, and the relationship is now better than it was before, just me being paranoid I guess, but it does bother me that she does not see the importance of it to me.
I also, do not want to bring it up to her very often because I want it to be from her unprompted and not from me bitching about it. She has said it exactly one time, it was when I was giving her a neck rub and it just came out of her about 3 or 4 months ago, I was not expecting it and just blirted out, boy its been a long time since I have heard that. Should have made a big deal out of it, and should have showed more significance of how it feels to have her say it to me.