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these days and nights are torturous to me and I get no relief from my great and might God who I guess is summer vacationing from me.


God never takes a summer vacation from you or any of us.

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Why Father when I reach out as I do do you remain silent now.


He is working on the other side of the mountain and he works in ways that are not always visible to the human eye or heard by the human ear.

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I am flailing in a treacherous ocean in great peril and you peer down but your aid seems elsewhere.


Again. He is working on your marriage. It didn't fall apart over night and it won't be restored over night.

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This is to great of a battle for me. I can not achieve anything in this battle but defeat when you are not assisting me. You are my armor and shield, the one who watches over me and preserves me from anything that would harm me. I am armorless and naked and will fall with great speed in this battle.

Where are you my comforter and protector. You give me direction and now without you I have none.


Doubting Thomas comes to mind. Did Hosea not wait for years? Did Jesus raise Lazarus from the dead? He got there 4 days after Lazarus had died and still raised him from the dead. Didn't God say that he can turn a heart of stone into a heart of flesh? God doesn't give you more than you can handle. You have made it this far. He knows you can handle it.

God is with you. Where is your faith? Maybe your faith is being tested.

Something I read today from rejoice ministries...

"What if Jesus came into your bedroom tonight and said, 'Wait for your spouse; your marriage will be healed." Jesus then walks out the door. Would you believe the Lord and wait for your beloved spouse?

From me. What if it took years? But you remember Jesus coming and telling you it will be done. Will you have the faith and courage and strength to keep waiting and being patient knowing at the perfect time your M would be restored?

Maybe he is building your faith and working on your W's heart.

Don't lose hope or faith. I read about marriage's that are restored after 8 and 10 years.

Look at this scripture...

"Seek the Lord while he may be found; call on him while he is near. Let the wicked forsake his way and the evil man his thoughts. Let him turn to the Lord, and He will have mercy on him, and to our God, for he will freely pardon. "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways, my ways," declares the LORD..."So is my word that goes out from my mouth: It will not return to me empty, but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it." Isaiah 55:6-8,11

Your plan for restoration now may not be what is best. There may still be work to do on you and your W so that when the restoration occurs, it will be stronger and better than ever. His ways are different than our ways and thank goodness he knows better than we do. Look at the mess we made. Now he has to clean it up for us. And he will if we are patient and remain faithful.

When this is all said and done, you will look back and be so happy that you made it through this and have a better marriage because of it.

Kevin


Me 36, W 37
M: 08/02/97
D13, D9
1st Bomb 02/08
Reconciled 04/08
2nd Bomb: 09/08
W filed for D 02/04/09
Separated 03/09
D dismissed 06/09/09
Still separated...