Try reading this. It might help.

Hang in there.

http://www.nytimes.com/2009/08/02/fashion/02love.html?pagewanted=2&em

M-43 W-40
2D - 9 and 5

Emotion, yet peace.
Ignorance, yet knowledge.
Passion, yet serenity.
Chaos, yet harmony.
Death, yet a new life.

RECONCILED AND WISER