Newbie (again)

[dday101798]

I'm sorry to all (other than "single again"), but very, very greatful for your concerns.

I had to get away from all this. I suddenly found that posting here was just not letting me clear my head.

I got so overwhelmed and really went to a dark nasty place that I NEVER want to know existed again within myself.

I was just getting it from all directions and really had no desire to keep going on with all this and that it didn't or I matter.

Than the uphill climb commenced. And let me say, I am far better off now. Nothing XW says or does harms or preturbs me anymore, at least so far. We even had a encounter and conversation regarding "us" and her position with OM in recent days at 'our house' that prior would have had me curled up in a ball for days. Not anymore.

So, as they say, sometimes it takes the worst in us to bring out the best in us.

I do sincerely apologize for scaring you all. You are a great bunch of folks I'd love to call friends. I will take the time when I am ready to reply individually. At the current moment I feel a little uneasy being back here and seing the words "divorce" and "marriage", I guess most of the prior problem.

Becoming great again, one little victory at a time.

-Dylan