Ok, I know I'm doing so many wrong things and I'm not listening. I'm sorry. I am finding it really hard not to defend myself when horrible accusations are being made. But i know i need to stop and the only thing that matters is how i feel about myself and knowing that there is no truth to those accusations.
I'm sorry, I'm learning. This is really, really tough for me. I know its tough for everyone. I know. But I don't know if I'm strong enough to do what everyone else is doing. I love my H and I want to be with him and work everything out, but at this point in time, I don't want to anymore. I'm just so tired of it all and I don't have the strength or the will to continue getting beaten down anymore. Theres a lof of things I need to think about, to re-evaluate. There are lots of problems that I need to look at and determine whether or not I want to continue to work on this and to get my marriage back.
In the meantime, if he emails back, I'll post it up here and if you guys would still be willing to tell me what the best way to proceed is, I will take your advice, because I clearly am not doing anything right or listening to everyones advice.
Me: 25 years young H: 37 No Kids M: almost 3 years (anniv coming up Sept 25th) Together: 4years Bomb: June 12th, 2009
**LOVE WILL FIND A WAY FOR TWO FOOLS IN THE RAIN**