I understand what you are saying but you also have a hard time not thinking about your W and what is going through her head too don't you?
It has been a problem of mine for a while. I am still working on the letting go and letting God. I am doing better, but I still think about what is going on in her mind which I need to just flat out stop. I know I pray multiple times a day and use scripture to pray also. I just have to remember to keep my faith and trust in God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit no matter what my human eyes may see or my ears may hear. God is working on it. He will reveal it in his perfect timing.
Kevin
Me 36, W 37 M: 08/02/97 D13, D9 1st Bomb 02/08 Reconciled 04/08 2nd Bomb: 09/08 W filed for D 02/04/09 Separated 03/09 D dismissed 06/09/09 Still separated...