well i am making a list of all the things my W ( and yes I still think of her as that) would want to see if she came home, or even moved back to the state. it fills the lonely times. my friends and family have been awesome through out this process. even with the GAL and PMA there are still times though were I feel very mortal, and don't want to be alone. thats what M is i guess in my eyes. someone to come home do and talk about the things you are proud of, and relate to when it gets hard. I don't have that right now and i'm just trying to make that ok.
