Hi everyone. Just wanted to post an update for journaling purposes I guess. After H was being mean and distant I tried to just be lovingly detached. Now he is back to being pretty kind again and has even called a couple of times (using excuses about kids or whatnot). It is so hard knowing that this road is going to be long and difficult. My H is so enchanted by the OW that I am so scared that he will do whatever she says. I guess I should state that OW was married (no kids) and ten years younger than H. My understanding is that she left her H to be with my H. What is it with people that they think this is ok. My kids are doing ok, but miss their dad. I just want this to get better. The pain is soo great. A lot of other posts talk about the H saying that the marriage was a mistake, the thing is my H doesn't . He says he did love me and we were madly in love but that our love has died like a drowning child and can't be resuscitated. I am trying my best to GAL but he was my L!!! Feel so lonely and helpless. I am such a control freak and this is so hard (yes, I'm working on that!!). I know part of our issues deal with me making more money and being more together and successful. At any rate, just ranting I guess. Have a good weekend!
M 35 H 37 Ds, 2 & 5 Married 13 years EA/PA since March, bomb 6/16/09 sep. 6/23/09
HIW M 35 H 37 D 5, D 2 Married 1996 Dating 1992 Met 1988 EA/PA started March 2009 Bomb 6/16/2009 Separated 6/23/2009
