What keeps coming to my mind is what we learned in DivorceCare, that it takes, on average, 3 to 4 months for every year of marriage to get fully healed from that relationship ending.
For me that means I have about four years of healing that I have to go through before I am truly fit to begin another serious relationship. When I related this to my IC, he said that sounds about right but he sensed that in my case it might not take quite that long and that I might be able to spring back sooner. He said it is just an average estimate after all, right?
However, I am beginning to think the statistic is right. Even if I push the starting date of my own healing to the Bomb-Day two years ago, I get the feeling that maybe it just might take another year or two to mend my shattered heart.
I have been conversing with a young divorced mother of two small children. She is 35, eleven years younger than I, but she seems undaunted by that. She's very cute, very attractive, and very spiritual. We have a lot in common, so much so it seems uncanny. And she seems genuinely interested. But I just don't think I'm ready yet, it's too soon -- and not just because of the age difference. I'm still dealing with the aftermath of the hurricane destructive forces of my D, and still in dire straits regarding custody of my S's and the expense of my legal defense. I've still got so much turmoil to get through and so much of my life I need to get back in order before I can begin to give myself to someone in a one-on-one R. Oh, I want to, believe me, but it would just not be fair to her or anyone else at this time.
I just have to be patient, and to wait on the Lord.
Sorry for the hijack, Yoyo. Just rambling a bit here.
