Well, the latest update on GF is she's been offered a job and has another potential one she'll discuss today. So, she's starting to get the offers I had a feeling would be coming.
I'm hoping once she's able to be back at work again full-time she'll be able to relax a bit more and we can then start to work on building things between us.
I was w/her last night along w/some of her friends and it is very clear that she's hesitant b/c of her past. So, for now, she's trying hard to hold off w/us b/c she's afraid of being burned again and that I'll end up being "just like all the others" who sound good up front, but in the end become obsessive and controlling.
I must be getting better b/c instead of jumping in and feeling like I needed to defend myself and who I am, I just simply said "What you've seen from me over the past 3 months is who I am. I'm not going to be changing that much if at all, but I know words are words, so I'll just keep being consistent until you are comfortable knowing I'm being genuine and real."
She liked that b/c that's what she needs right now. Actions not words.
It is a learning process for sure. However, I'm glad I'm able to grow in a positive way through all this.
I'll mess up - we all do - but at least now, I can fully understand why I do things and why the things I did before aren't healthy for anyone - especially me.
I also have a much better understanding of how to properly love someone, especially a woman. I'll never master this one, but I have a much firmer grasp on how to be a better man, lover, husband, friend, and confidant to a woman now.
