D1 came crawling to me this morning extremely happy to see me. She reached up towards me and I picked her up to my shoulder and she rested her forehead against mine. I kissed her on the cheek and she started reaching for a pop tart. The daycare worker tore a piece off and she snacked on it, directing me where to carry her around the room by pointing and leaning. I walked her to the window, and I walked her around the room. She got me to hold her the entire time, nearly 30 minutes or so.

I saw W who looked fairly unhappy and didn't pay me more than a glance.

I recently uncovered some evidence I don't want to go into at the moment which gives me a much clearer picture of when the affair started, and how long it has been going on - which is around the time I suspected it was going on anyway.

It is a piece of the puzzle, but an important piece that if we can get introduced will poke further holes in her cover story. It is also shocking and saddening to see it in black and white...

I am sad... but I spoke to my IC yesterday about recent events and got my head on straight in terms of priorities.

I know she was having an affair... but actually knowing more of the facts does trouble me. But I just don't know what to feel.

I was holding D1 this morning and sort of wanted to cry... but I just smiled and held her and told her how much I love her.

I'm going to get my boys tomorrow... they looked at her as a mother... but she doesn't even have the time of day for them currently.

I'm hopeful her evaluation happens and goes well.

"You can't reason someone out of a position they didn't reason themselves into."