Trying to cope with H, IA/EA (was Newbie-1st post)

[Faith2010]

I'm writing on here because I need someplace to get it out. Otherwise - I will go scream at H. I already let a little bit out. H did not reply which infuriates me more.

Seriously, if I weren't actually living this nightmare, it would be a comedy. Who acts like this? Who just changes their mind about whether they're going to continue with an affair like it not a big effing deal? WHO DOES THAT? Oh, wait, my H, that's who.

H talks out his a$$. Sad, but I just figured that out. It has crossed my mind many times the past few days that he was playing games with me. I'd even comment to that effect and he was so darn convincing that he was not, I dismissed the thought. Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me. Question: where does the shame go the third, fourth, fifth times?

Any great words of wisdom?