Here I was at Church praying for our M, our family and for H while he's posting that.
I understand the irony and your frustration. You are doing what you want to do. You don't control your H. Don't keep score it leads to resentment. You pray because you want to not because you expect a outcome that you want. Be responsible for your own happiness. You can handle it.
Cheers
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
