I married a very confusing man....only now I know just how confused he is. I really dont see an end in sight right now...but, Im still willing to give him a chance if I see him change...but honestly, what I see now, Ive seen before. He can be very smooth when he wants something.
I dont know how much growth is here!! MAN GIRL you have changed!! AMAZING!!
M-20 years/BOMB 12/24/06 Moved out 3/12/07 D final 7/30/2008 finding myself again
Thank you Cagz....I have been keeping up with your thread some...its hard some days but somewhat easier.
I find it funny alot of the time to watch my H. I know him so well now that I can tell when something is up and even I can tell when something is going to happen with him before it even does.
Today he is showing abit of jealousy. He texts me alot and I always answer if I can. Well, today he called me on his way to get lunch. He makes comments that I must be talking to someone else since IM not talking to him alot or just waiting for him to text me. IM SORRY, But I dont sit around all day thinking of things to text him about. He just comments alot on how I just must not want to talk to him. Im not all that sure what he is trying to get out of me. Maybe one day I will just say "of course, Im talking to this great looking guy that just come in the shop". Im sure he would be speechless.
I have learned that my H is jealous, he loves alot of attention and is very needy. These are things that after 12 years of marriage, that I just didnt recognize....Im learning!
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
Well, today is my 35 birthday...Im going to have a great day!
My H was the first to call me this morning. He actually woke me up! He wants to do something for my bday tonight....??? ok, will see what that is.
He was in a odd mood the other night, being short and sarcastic with me....he ended up apologizing before the night was over....I have no idea what sparked it. I will have to tell more about it later...it was weird.
Anyway my daughter comes home tomorrow! I sure hope she is having a great time!!
Have a great day everyone!!
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
Thank You Mishka!!!! The day will be what I make of it!! So, why not make it a good one!!!!
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
I had a great birthday! Now its Friday and Im even happier! My daughter comes home from camp today and I will be able to see her for a little while before she is off to her daddy's for the weekend.
My H ended up getting me a card and a gift for me from the kids....it was nice. Then he stayed and had supper with me. I swear I feel his heart softening some days, but others I still see him so lost.
Ugh, I ran into the exOW this morning...and I do mean "ran" into! I was coming out of the post office and she was walking around the corner...I had to stop and move over...I werent planning on saying hello or anything, but she said a quiet "hey" and then so did I and kept on walking....I did wave and smile at her New boyfriend only because I know him and he did wish me a happy birthday yesterday on fb. I just hate running into her...oh well, at least I handle it gracefully!
I am going out with a friend of mine tonight. We are going out to eat and Im not sure what else...tomorrow Im going shoppin with some friends. NOt sure what the rest of the weekend holds...but Im looking forward to it....gonna try not to let my H's mood swings get in my way!
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
Passed him at his storage place a couple of days ago...he saw me and was upset that I didnt stop and see him (?)
He was looking for his meds.
Guess he feels he needs them again.
He was torn out of shape when he brought the kids to me that night. I asked what was wrong and all I got was "it doesnt matter". The next day I asked if I had done something to upset him because I didnt think I had and he said that I just dont know that I do. Well then I told him that this is were communication comes into the picture...he said he was communicating and I told him that saying "it doesnt matter" isnt communicating, he then told me he was trying the best he knew how...Of course he is trying the only way he know how....keeping it bottled up and letting me figure out is how.
ugh...after 3 years I would have thought that communcation was something that would have been learned.
He is so unhappy and miserable. We do talk everyday. He texts alot.
oh well....im good though. Living my life!!
Last edited by kissak; 08/13/0904:09 PM.
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
