Settling back into no contact today. Withdrawals. Good thing I was too busy to dwell on that. I forgot to mention fo him the super obvious, that he should carry the docs off the flash to this HD. He probably doesn't even know that. I may text him that tomorrow.
Still haven't found an apartment. Short staffed at work & working tons of hours leaves me only 1 day a wk to look. That's tomorrow. Going to see several places tomorrow. I'm getting nervous. Landlady served me a 30 day notice Aug. 1st. That whole situation is causing major anxiety. I stopped paying rent in June. There's so many health & safety problems in apartment that I just quit paying. Initially it was withholding to urge LL to remediate problems. Now I've given up on that and just want out. I've looked at about 50 places and can't find home. It cost me $12,000. to move into this place 4 yrs ago and due to a mixture of circumstances - I don't have that kind of money now. I'm very worried. I'm a single mom with 2 dogs & no longer have stellar credit that I had a couple years ago. This is a very stressful situation. I've seen sooo many horrible places it's discouraging. Kitchens are not living rooms, hallways are not living rooms, dining rooms are not bedrooms, walk-in closets are not bedrooms. In theory I don't feel sorry for my LL since she's letting major problems fester, but in reality it takes nerves of steel and I guess I don't have it. I had 3 months deposit which will be lived out by late Aug. I think LL owes me at least one free month for loss of belongings damaged, loss of utilities & amenities supposed to be included,out of pocket expenses, etc. Of course she doesn't agree. There's toxic mold in basement, rain water pouring in in 2 locations, termites in basement, broken window, entrance gate damaged so that it doesn't lock, I have human feces on the balcony that a angry & clearly disturbed upstairs tenant is dumping there. Makes me sad to see a gorgeous bldg fall into such condition. We've had hot water disconnected, then cooking gas meter reclaimed. No cooking for over 2 wks! This LL is terribly negligent and seems to not care about her tenant's health or safety at all. Even if LL fixed the 9 issues, I simply can't afford this huge beautiful place any longer. Mark last paid rent in Jan. I took a roommate after who couldn't pay his rent & had a drug problem so I had to pay a couple grand to get him into an apartment nearby just to get rid of him. Then my next roommate had a psychotic breakdown and I had to have her commtted to a mental institution. Her entire belngings are still here. I give up on the roommate idea, just need a cheaper place. Moved out of the home I'd shared w/ exh to live here and moved in with bf. At the time, I could have afforded rent alone but it's not the case anymore. Rent is nearly 3grand a month. My business is hanging on, but making 1/4 what it did 2 yrs ago. 2009 has been one thing after another. I have had some of the most trying experiences of my lifetime. (well nothing would ever match the experience my exh put me thru tho!) My next place will have to be cheaper which means much smaller. Therefore I have to get rid of 2/3 of my belongings. This is all so overwhelming! The reason my place looks so frightening now is cuz I'm organizing what I'll try to sell, what I'll donate, what I'll toss... I have lived in large spaces for a decade, I have accumulated a ton of stuff. The idea that I will have to unload it within the next 3 wks is freaking me out. Venting.... Way off topic! Wish Mark would ride up on his white horse and rescue me. Big Sigh..... There, now I'm back on topic.
