I'm getting there...I hardly even hear her these days...which feels kind of rude to admit, but it's just that I don't trust her at all - nor do I believe her at all...so it makes it very easy to focus my energy and attention on myself (in a healthy way) and my kids (which is always a joy).
Something kind of obvious hit me the other day at the playground...I was watching a family walk through - mother, father, kids...and realized that what I missed now wasn't B - I missed the ideal of being in a family - but the truth is that what we had was never very comforting or reassuring - particularly with her inclination toward needing another man's attention...
It's odd to approach 40 and watch young families at the park...the tensions between couple are so obvious to me now...and it's so easy to spot couples that aren't sharing their love and lives with one another in a healthy way...I don't think I'm jaded though...at least I hope I'm not.
