I want my Monkey and Sheep Back

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Thanks for all your wonderful advice everyone!
I appreciate it so much. I would have done the wrong thing if it weren't for you guys, so again, thanks!

journaling..
I'm really sleepy right now but I have to wait for my last batch of eBay items to end and see how much I've made and send the invoices out so I can get paid!

Told my C that I was moving so I have one last session with her and one session with my prescriber before moving. I have to search for another C in the city now, hoping my insurance can help me find one.

I miss H right now so going to sleep soon would really help me from dwelling on how much I miss him.

To Do List For Tomorrow:

1) Pack up all ebay items and have it shipped out

2) Go for a walk

3) Start packing up little things into boxes

4) Treat myself to an iced latte at the coffe shop down the road!

That'll take up quite a bit of time tomorrow. I have to walk to the post office too with all my packages so I can get in some extra exercise. This is great, the apartment complex I'm moving into has a gym and a rooftop outdoor pool! Not like I would use the pool anyway, I'd be too self conscious. But that's what the gym is for!! I'm hoping to lose everything I gained by my birthday in December! 70 pounds in 5 months? I think it's doable. And I'll do it in a healthy way. No diets, just proper nutrition, smaller portions and lots of exercise. Going to start Pilates too, it worked so well for me before. I should definitely start it again!

So I needed to make plans for the weekend so I don't sit home and wallow. On Saturday, my friend is coming over to buy and take my bookcase and to look at some other furniture and kitchen supplies that I have as she is moving to another city as well (more money, yay!), then later on that day, I might go on a nature walk with a few friends, waiting on their decisions, and hopefully head to a bar/lounge in the city at night. Then on Sunday, I have to get up really, really early like 3 or 4 to head down to the flea market and set up shop! Selling as much as I can this time and going to be much more prepared than last time. I really need to make a few hundred that day so I'm going to bring as much as I can, fingers crossed it doesn't rain!

Next weekend, my cousin is having a baby shower. They sent the invitation and the registry at Babies R Us but I can't afford anything for them right now. And I also don't want to go because they are awful people. They do nothing but gossip about me and my sitch, and before that, they were just spreading rumors about me all over the place. I don't want to be around people like that right now. It'll just get me down. If I was stronger, I'd be able to face it and just say what the hell, who cares what they're saying, at least I know its not true. But right now, I have no confidence and just can't handle them right now. But every single family member and relative is going to be there but me. Who cares. I don't care. I'll make sure to do something else that day with my friends (who can't stand them either).

Anywho, I'm getting really sleepy so sleep I shall!
Thanks again everyone for your help! Have a great night