OK, I am having a total moment of weakness. H is distant again after his drunk night and I can't stop thinking about whether he is now talking to OW again and that is why he is distant. Probably, but I just wish I knew. I hate not knowing what I'm dealing with. It is driving me crazy. I was doing so much better until he started saying he wanted us back and started doing all kinds of nice things. It's everything I wanted but now all distant again. I am so tired of the roller coaster and I want to just call him and ask if he is ever going to get help and get his sh** together. But that is R talk and it never goes well and I always feel worse after. I just want some releif from the constact wondering. I am seriously considering getting a GPS for his car. I know that is stupid and snooping and everything and expensive. Ugggghhhh...help!!!
