Funny how those things work. Spend hours writing paragraphs and when it's all done the final message is just a line or two. But understand the first draft wasn't a waste of time. You needed to get some things out and even without sending that message, you've done a little work for yourself. Now just keep moving forward. New apt. New bike. New life.
"My actions are my only true belongings. I cannot escape the consequences of my actions. My actions are the ground upon which I stand." Thich Nhat Hanh