On the verge of a meltdown.

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Well this has been a tough morning.
It was my first of my two week nights with my children.and only the 2nd time I've had them since this whole mess started.It has been extremely hard.It is hard to spend time with them when all my thoughts are consumed with her.I came to believe this would pass with time it hasn't.my D6 asked why we can't be a family together and I just fell apart.I had to hide in the basement so they wouldn't see me in that state.The adjustment from SAHD to PTD(part time Dad) absolutely sucks.I know I have to try and keep it together for them but it is so hard.My oldest S20 has been my savior.he has been here for me through it all,although his relationship with my W has suffered I ask him not to pass judgment.this has all been a terrible strain on my children and sometimes the guilt can just be crippling.I just keep praying and put it God's hands.I hear the sound of little feat,Time to make the donuts.

God Bless