Hi OD. So when are you off to Ibiza? Sorry to hear your H is confusing. I am not familiar with your sitch, but I think confusion is quite normal & expected in our predicaments. I see you've been here quite a while, HUGS. My xh was a mess of contradictions. I was buckled onto the roller coaster so long. It's impossible to know why they put us thru this. Mine eventually came around at the 11/2 yr mark and was plagued with guilt & remorse. I had waited so long for this fantasy to happen, and was surprised that I no longer fancied the thought of working on our messy painful issues. I was done just as he was coming around. Life is strange sometimes. Aah..... most times actually. Tell us more about the other buses! What yoga practice do you do?