OK, I know it has been said, but Holy Cow! I just read your whole post and the progression you have made just from your first post to where you are at now is awesome. Your H has tried to convince you that you are insecure because it allows him to manipulate. The actions you are showing now are strong and you should be proud of your strength. In my sitch I am dealing with a H who is an addict and I would say your H fits that bill to a T. He is filling some kind of void with sex and has gotten some kind of sick satisfaction from pulling you into it. He needs to get help. You deserve to be in a relationship where you are respected and treated with dignity. The fact that there isn't stress all the time is just part of the cycle of abuse. He has to provide you some happiness or you won't go along with things. It's his manipulation. I hear what you are saying about the couples profile, but I don't understand why you wouldn't take that off. I want to challenge your thinking here a littl. He is pimping you out on that site. It is as much yours as it is his. You are not taking his profile down, you are removing yourself from something you didn't agree with from the start. He does not own the right to you because he posted it in the first place. I'm sorry if that came across as too strong, I just want you to know that anything that has to do with you, it yours!!! When you are in the midsts of this as long as you have been, I think you become brain washed. I am so glad you are getting the help and support you need. And, I hope your D chooses to stay with you full-time.
