In Limbo

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Sorry about the hard to figure out name. Was one of those passcodes I had to invent years ago for something and have been using it ever since. Thanks for the hope. It seems that is all I have a this point. Sitting at home tonight while she is out. Didn't ask who, what, where, anything. Just left before she went out. I hate to see her get her dressed to kill in her Cougar outfit before she goes out. I am so tired of hearing that I was controlling, I made all the decions in the marriage, it is my money not hers, I'm this, I'm that...My god it is amazing she stayed married to me for 15 years. She wrote a letter to my mother today unprovoked. Saying however this turns out, she wants to remain friends and that she is sorry for hurting her. She says she needs to do what is best for her boys. That she wants them to see her stand on her own two feet. I want to tell her our three sons just want their mommy. They could care less if Mommy is making money and can buy things without using our joint credit card which is $4,000 per month plus private school, mortgage and Sam's club. Am I that controlling??? Sorry, just venting. I said to my mother I don't care what you write to my wife. Whatever your feelings are, say them. I am tired of everyone walking on eggshells around her, including myself. My family is close, hers is not. I know getting family involved is wrong. I am not really. If they want to say something, let them....I just try to basically ignore her now as much as I can.

Anyway, I was glad to hear your story. Reading through many of these friends it is hard to find many success stories. Sounds like a lot of people like me just trying to get through the days during their dark days. And these are Dark Days. Thanks for hope. Have a good night.